So i’m a little over 10 weeks into this whole Twin Mom life and I have to say it’s definitely the greatest adventure ever! I feel like so much has changed in my life already and we’ve only just begun.
In the interest of honesty, i’ve shed a few tears, been completely overwhelmed when i’m alone, and wondered how on earth i’m ever going to be able to raise these two successfully. I’ve looked around at other moms who appear to have it all together and wondered why I don’t look like that at all. After all, i’m only human and it’s taken some personal reflection to admit that i’m not perfect. Nothing like babies to teach you your weaknesses, am I right? It’s a little intense to think of the pressure to raise them the way God would have me and to give them everything that I want to give them. I remind myself daily that God chose to give me this life and He wouldn’t have answered these prayers if He didn’t think I could do it. Wow! That thought is even more wonderful…to think, God trusted me with all of this!
It’s beyond exciting:
I just love watching them grow and change. Seeing them starting to take in the world and interact with me and Daddy more and more is so gratifying. I’m so excited for all of the things to come: little laughs, crawling, walking and talking but i’m not taking a single moment with the little milestones for granted. While it’s a little sad to see them getting bigger and changing from newborns to infants and beyond, it’s incredibly satisfying to see that they’re healthy and happy! It’s even more exciting to watch their interactions with each other while they’re on the changing table, laying on the bed, or eating a meal and reaching for their twin’s hand. I’m so blessed to have all of these moments and to able to nurse them…together!
I love that they’ll always have a friend in each other…no matter what. It’s so neat to watch them together and to never be alone. They have a very special life that the rest of us will never get to experience and I hope that they always love each other and appreciate it. Family is special and I always wanted a sibling that was that close to me.
I feel like i’ve never loved their Daddy more than I do right now. He works such long hours with his job in the military and I know how much it breaks his heart to be away from us. It’s not always the big, romantic gestures that are important in a marriage, but the simple things he does. It’s the way he takes the kids to give me a few minutes to myself or allow me to take a shower when he gets home. It’s the way he wakes up several times a night to change diapers and get me set up with nursing when he has to get up at O-dark-thirty. And it’s the way he loves them and plays with them and would give anything to make sure that we’re all happy. He’s never been a “typical guy” and had to grow up much earlier than most, but we’re the ones who reap the benefits. I love that we’re finally been able to create life together and we get to be the ones to raise these two perfect little miracles together.
The way that everyone talks about the birth of their babies, I expected my love for them to peak that day. On the contrary, it’s grown in incredible ways since the day I found out we had embryos growing and getting ready for us. I feel as if my love keeps growing anymore my heart is simply going to burst! I’m so excited to be on this journey with these two and to get to be their mommy. It’s an incredible privilege and I have to pinch myself to remember that it’s real! I feel like God spoils me way more than I deserve and it’s mind-blowing to sit and think about the miracles in our life!
~Melissa G, Proud Twin MOMMY at last!